2 weeks ago I was shitting myself !

Sat here 2 weeks ago and I was shitting my self ! But here I am , my head did not explode and have not killed anyone.

Now the stress has almost gone and the anxiety with it. (tablets help but they are not magic) I am so pleased that I have made the first part :o)

Second part -the habit of having an argument/something happening and not running to the dealers 

 I have had a few "do's" with my partner and at the min the only thing that stops me going to score is the fact that i do not want to fuck myself over in life any more I am more confident, controlled and all the other things the other sites say and I didn't believe at first but you have to try it to find out they are right. I even smashed an interview and might have a job after 7 months out of work !!!!!!

I did think about it just to get back at my partner but quickly thought fuck it I am a better person for stopping so why let her drag me down.

When I get stressed at the moment it is hard but tend to walk away and go fishing, gym or just put my head under my pillow on the bed for a while and breath (sounds sad but works).

I am looking forward to getting past the second part but this will take time I know this but not half as hard as the first part as you have all that to go through again if you go back on it and believe me I don't want to do it again 

Financially we are sooooooooooooo much better off about £70 a week better off in fact and enjoying just buying stuff !

Living on benefits I honestly do not know how we managed

On the first week I joined a local gym on a great deal £20 a month but had to pay £45 up front on a rolling monthly contract and handing over the money I would usually buy weed with was really hard but left me with nothing so could not buy any so kind of helped (even though my dealer was really "nice" and would tic me if I wanted but they are only your friends when making money off you, you WILL find this out) however like I mentioned earlier the gym really helps so it was one of the best things I did !

Day 12

End of day 12, stressful day I have had today but life goes on.

Still hard but still worth it !

Day 10 !!!

Day 10 still going strong ! hard but still positive follow me on twitter for a more detailed account or just a chat , I follow everyone back. Don't be shy and say Hi :o)

very helpful web site if your quitting :o)

http://www.quit-weed.com/needtoquitweed/quit-weed-benefits/50-strong-benefits-of-quitting-weed-and-your-successful-lifestyle/

Day 5

Well day 5 nearly over- that was a long one ! Bring on day 6 :o)

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Planning

Plan your stop to a certain date. Do not try to cut down this does not work stop lying to yourself !.

There are many things that you can do to keep you occupied. I have kept my days as busy as possible, joined a gym, started fishing and taking my kids out more. I also used the following to help me

St Johns wort extract 300mg in tablets is amazing !  It takes away your anxiety and believe me this is the key (works almost straight away) cost me £6.99 for 60 tablets. this will last me 2 weeks and although seems expensive weed can be about a tenner a gram and you.know yourself how much you spend a week.
I found these tablets in my local health store after looking everywhere like Chinese medicine places ect

Valerian for sleep (cost me £6.99)  Not sure about this yet but will let you know (can take time to work)

Fake weed from your local joke shop usually called super skunk or Amsterdam gold ect.
This contains a mix of herbs like wild flower and passion flower also found in kalms.
This does two things.1, chills you out a tiny bit and 2,  most importantly you can still keep your fingers busy by rolling same as a spliff.
The stuff is rank but this helps you later on to stop your rolling habit. I also bought 20 herbal cigarettes from the health shop to smoke in public if needed (£2.35)

Read on to see how I do if you like if not GOOD LUCK to you.

Be proud !

It is a massive decision to decide to stop and you should be proud of yourself to get this far as I know people who will smoke it forever and be happy with that.personally I can not let it control my life any more !

All users know that it does control you and messes up your life but just lie to themselves. I know as I did it for 15 years- (what a tit lol ) I will keep this blog updated and let you know how I get on.

Stop Weed

I used weed for about fifteen years and thought it was impossible to come off.. I did try about two years ago and succeeded for about 5 months. However it was a nightmare to stop and the anxiety, lack of sleep, nausea ect was was horrific.and I mean horrific ! It lasted about a month with the hardiest part being the first two weeks. Cannabis is mentally and physically addictive.It should be recognised as that ! I am now trying again but this time I have researched some legal/safe herbal remedies and planned ahead. I am on day 2 as I write this and am doing really good. its night time and I have been quite calm most of the day. Result :o)